I’m in a funk.
This usually happens to me after Christmas, before the days warm up, and I should know it’s coming. Funny how it always seems to be upon me before I’ve even had a chance to realize it’s happening. I think most of life works that way. We get so caught up in our day to day that we don’t notice much of anything, good or bad. I know the things that I should be doing: regular workouts, eating good clean food, spending time in the Word, giving more of myself to my family, focusing on what I have instead of what I don’t. My Bible reading plan is so far behind I don’t know how to get back on track, I’m finding it extremely tedious. My workouts are staying pretty consistent because I’m watching Netflix while I workout on the treadmill so it feels more like an indulgence. I’m not always making the greatest choices food wise, but I’m getting better. I’m trying to plan a garden and some house projects for when the weather gets warmer, and hoping to get my kids more involved in the process of house projects. I sometimes think they would be content to sit and watch television all day if I let them. I just don’t understand watching someone else live their life when you could be living your own. My gifts list is languishing while I wish things were different. Not good.
I’ve been living without a goal. Letting life pass by and not noticing. Not counting gifts. Not creating. So, with that in mind, I will be more intentional. I will set goals for workouts, water consumption, plan meals, work on creative endeavors, plan date nights with my husband. I will count or photograph at least five gifts every day. I will be in the Word more, and in prayer more. I will Facebook less, Pin less, and fast from electronic media one day per week. I will invite someone for tea. I will bake with my children. I will give homemade bread away. I will journal more. Create more. Love more.
Gifts List 2/6/12: the gift of seeing my father on video with Grant at four months old; praises sung and strummed by my 10 year old; my first girls heart for service at home and away; the job that provides a home for my family; the health of my children; bookcases full of treasures; blog friends that encourage me to be a better wife and mother; the gift of creativity that abounds within the walls of my home; winter days ahead with hot chocolate and books; habits broken and replaced with better ones; being a new creation; hope.